- Write down: “I want…”
- If nothing comes immediately, close your eyes and wait for an answer, when the answer comes, open your eyes and write it down.
- Hold still for a little moment to feel that answer.
- If you want to write down a reaction to your answer, you can. This can literally be anything and as short or long as you want.
When you’re ready, return to step 1 by writing the next “I want…”, and keep repeating the whole process until you feel you would like to stop.
What's Journaling with Arial?
Journaling is a healing process that helps you to work through obstacles, find a deeper connection with yourself, ... and so much more!
Here I'm sharing with you the various processes I use during my journaling times that have helped me a lot. At the top of the post you find the instructions to get started, and below that you find my personal example of the writing exercise.
I want… to get in touch with my wants
I want… to be really safe while I’m writing this. I want to be able to put this process up on my website, but I also want to feel free to think and write down anything without having to be vulnerable in ways I don’t want to.
Reaction: You are safe. You can delete whatever you want out of your example without needing to justify that to anyone or even yourself. As long as you’re not pretending to give people a raw unaltered completely open example, you’re good.
I want… to be really passionate when I’m working.
Reaction: Like… right now? Seems like I’m succeeding in my morning goal of letting go of need-to’s and have-to’s and just doing what I really want to do. Even if that’s just going through a process to find out what it is I want to do.
I want… to be a 100% unashamed in life.
Reaction: Makes me think of that video from Teal Swan about overcoming shame. But I can’t really remember the how to about it. But that’s maybe because I didn’t finish it. I would like to actually. I would like to watch her video on authenticity too. But I would also like to keep working on InevitableBliss during my “desk time”.
I want… to break free of my own rules.
Reaction: Love and fear. Emotional.
I want… to put this whole thing on the website as it is. It’s beautiful the way it is.
Reaction: Makes me come back to the same circle: fear of wanting to write down something I don’t want to share. But I’m still safe. I am still in control over what I want to post or not post, share or not share. Still. Okay.
I want… to fall in the dark deepness.
I want… to be connected to my heart.
I want… my life experience to feel like a buzzing alive beautifulness.
I want… to know what to do.
Reaction: I get so confused. Don’t we all have this submissive part of ourselves? The part of me that likes to be told what to do, the part of me that loves having no choice. And I love it the most when the path is intuitively so clear that although I could technically do lots of things, my heart just feels like it has to do this ONE thing. I love that. I want that. Would I want that all the time? Don’t I want to feel like the creator of my life too? Not just a puppet of God. But being the embodiment of God myself. Sharing that free will. But that openness leaves me so… scared to make the wrong choice. Or just to waste time on not doing what I ‘should be doing’,… whatever that may be… if even it exists. Does free will imply there is no best plan or divine destiny to fulfill, or might there be such a divine plan that I can choose to fulfill or not to fulfill. It makes me angry and long for it at the same time. I don’t want anyone to rule me, and I want to be held and be safe and not have to know anything. Afraid that… I don’t know enough to … life is beautiful. Life does feel beautiful.
I want… to edit a meditation for the Crystallize Qualities course.
Reaction: Funny. I notice multiple things in myself. A part of me is happy to want to start this working day. Another part of me is relieved that I can start doing something productive (as if this wasn’t productive? As if I have to be productive…? As if I’m afraid not to be productive!). And yet another part is distrusting it. “Don’t I just want that because I actually have to? Maybe I just can bear the tension of not doing what I think I have to do.” Argghhh so confusing! Didn’t I want to make that course? The inspiration came about two years ago, and suddenly last month in Thailand the time was ripe and I so easily recorded all of the meditation within a week. And I like the therapeutic aspect of listening to my own meditations. And I want to put it on the website. I think that’s somehow where it gets stuck, the love flow. With a vision, (it being a finished product on the website), it becomes a have-to in my mind. Now I’ll have to finish that work because I’ll have to put it on the website. And also: it has to meet a certain standard. And that standard I strive for is quite usually a little bit higher than what I’m producing at the moment. So I’m not meeting my own standards. 1. It’s not finished yet. And I have this the-dead-line-was-last-year-feeling. And 2. It’s not good enough because it’s not super awesome / life-changing enough. Yep, that makes me feel heavy. I guess that quickly drains the playful and loving energy out of it. Self-compassion. Some hopelessness.
I want… to be happy.
I want… to close my eyes and enjoy.
I want… to work through the issues that stop me from fully enjoying my work.
Reaction: But I don’t know how!
I want… clarity.
I want… not this.
I want… a resolving.
I want… to be further.
I want… to want to be here.
I want… to smile to myself.
Reaction: I am.
I want… to understand myself better.
Reaction: I will.
I want… to be with Jaleel.
Reaction: Yes, love.
I want… to edit that meditation!
Reaction: And I don’t want it at the same time. But now it starts to feel like I’m just keeping myself stuck here.
I want… to experience what it will be like if I just start editing the meditation now.
Reaction: And I don’t want it at the same time. And I want to experience what it will be like to stay around in this writing too.
I want… to love. And to pray and to beg and to be in the darkness behind my closed eyelids. And in my heart. And in my sad smile. To feel and to fall into myself.
Reaction: Love love love.
What is wise? I’ll start editing that meditation. And accept that I can’t figure out my deepest desires in this one session.